Sunday, December 14, 2008

Guess I'm a liar! :-P

Yeah, I definitely haven't been updating like I said I was going to... SORRY, dammit! :P

A lot has happened since my last post. I don't think I'm going to get into details and I'll try to keep this short, so here's a semi list of things that are important that are happening:

-I've joined GKS Kenpo Karate and I FUCKIN' LOVE it! It's really great and I'm VERY happy with it!

-I've chosen to be just friends with Evienne. I'm looking for what it is I want and what makes me happy in a relationship. I haven't felt that in my life yet, so I'm going to continue to wait until either I do find it or I just give up and settle.

-I work at a factory, Marietta Drapery and I cut the width of window blinds with a circular saw and even though that sounds repetitive and boring, it's a lot of fun and I love the job!

-I've made some great friends here (mostly through work and karate) and it's been great.

-I'm starting to get back on track with money that I owe and stuff and I figure by sometime in January I should be all caught up and I can start a real normal life here, and that's very exciting to me.

So yeah, I don't know what else to say right now. I haven't been updating because I'm real busy most of the time and I didn't know what to say because I'm sick of hearing the same questions and comments about the things I'm doing.

No one and I mean NO ONE listened to me when I said I was moving here for myself and I'm sick of people feeling sorry for me that things aren't working out with my relationships. I'm perfectly happy and I chose for things to be this way and I don't want to change it. I just want to be happy for myself before I try to have a serious relationship with someone. Right now the best relationship I'm having is the one with myself...

If I could, I'd marry and fuck myself all the time! Narcissism is key to me right now. I want to love myself, then share that version of me with someone I think is worthy. So, I'll try to let you know how that works out for me LOL!