Sunday, June 06, 2010

Almost there.

Sterling and I hung out again last night and it was totally kick-ass! We did co-op Army of Two: The 40th Day and we cranked the volume and communicated a lot like "I'm gonna flank right. I have three contacts in my sights. I'm going to run in to the tower and snipe the one on the upper deck. I need you to provide covering fire as I run in. You ready? Okay. Go go go!" Man it was killer fun.

We also talked a lot more about life and the things that are going on in each other's lives and there was definitely some illuminating conversation that went on and it's really good to get someone else's perspective on the things that are happening and it's good to know what's going on in my friend's life as well. I hope that life works out for the best for the both of us.

Sterling also said that he'd take me to pick up Leon on Tuesday, so that's great that we finally have a game plan and Leon and Sterling can meet. I hope that Sterling likes her and doesn't think she's ugly or stupid or boring or anything.

I guess time will tell. It's crazy for me to think that if everything goes according to plan, she'll be getting on a bus tomorrow night to come live with me. It's just mind-boggling and I'm so super excited about it all.

I also hope I can get the support of my friends and family instead of the dirty looks and stupid, ignorant remarks about the life choices I make. I know I've done stupid shit in the past and I've made mistakes just like everyone does but that doesn't mean you should make me feel like a complete idiot and less of a person. I've taken a lot of time to reflect on the choices I've made and what's happened in my life and I've learned from them and I haven't found myself in any kind of cycle, repeating what I've done before, so in that light, I think I'm doing a fantastic job at this whole "life" thing.

Leon and I will be happy because I know that I'll do absolutely everything in my power to make us work. If things fail, at least I'll have no regrets. But I want to be stubborn and say that things won't fail. I'll bend and give and do everything I have to in order to make her comfortable and happy so that we can be happy together.

It's so close now... I'm so damn excited!

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