I am so fucking lonely :( I hate being alone. anyone who knows me knows my biggest fear is to be alone and that's all I feel anymore, is so desperately alone.
I find the VERY limited amount of people I'm interested in and something is always wrong. It's depressing.
Maybe I should lower my standards and just get anyone I can that's nearby. :((
I want to scream but no one would hear me.
I feel like the only people I can talk to don't give a shit about me anymore. They either think I'm boring or stupid or both.
I hate this. I do NOT deserve this shit... this steaming pile of endless excrement.
I'm not stupid and I'm not a bad person, so STOP treating me like I am. I know you're stupid and you've made bad mistakes, but I'm not as dumb as you. I've messed up more than you ever will. I'm a complete fuck up and my life is a testament to that. I've learned my lessons from my mistakes and am WAY ahead of you in lessons learned!
I've grown up WAY before my time and I never had a chance at a real childhood. No one cares about me. No one and I mean NO ONE ever showed interest in ME! I was never asked the right questions and no one cared enough for me to try to ask. No one knows or understands me. No one cares about why I think the way I do. It's so fucking endlessly lonely. I love myself and know what kind of person I am, but no one else feels the same towards me.
I just want to be wanted. I want to be loved. :( I HATE being so alone!